Hamberger Fantasy & Salad Orgy

Detox Day 3 - Last night was the hardest. I really want to eat something small. Fantasies of a Five-Guys cheeseburger dressed in a pair of cargo shorts with no shirt, running through a field crossed my mind. I know strange, right?

The funniest part was when I imagined a salad orgy. In my mind, I saw lettuce, tomatoes, carrots, celery, onions, mushrooms, beans, olives, and cucumbers in a nice condo over looking the NYC skyline. The scene was posh and chill. The veggies were all hanging out on modern furniture with animal skin rugs. There was a red beat sitting on top of the piano as the head of romaine lettuce played "Smooth Operator." I started to laugh, because I imagined that the next morning, after the party, when the house cleaner came in...there was salad everywhere. It looked like a nice, freshly, tossed salad.

My roommate added that a cutting board and chopping knife came to the party. All of the veggies were attracted to the cutting board and chopping knife. As the board and knife started to mingle and dance with the veggies, they started to "cut up" and it was a great time. Then the salad dressing came in over and spread their love all over everyone. There was music playing. I think that it was Jay-z and Beyonce' "Hollywood." For some reason, Rick James was lying on the couch eating strawberries.

Any who...it was long night needless to say. I was tempted and tested to eat until I went to bed. As I feel asleep I listened to meditation and calming melodies on Pandora to take my mind of off the cheeseburgers, salad, and Rick James.

Today I feel fabulous. The girl next to me is eating a Starbucks breakfast sandwich, and I have no desire to eat. In fact I think that I am going to work out this evening.

Mind & Body

I've been thinking about detoxing for a while. All of my life I've been skinny and in shape. I've been playing volleyball since I was eight. My parents walked, biked and provided a healthy diet for my brother and I. I never got in trouble for having my hands in the cookie jar, because my parents didn't keep sweets in the house. When I went to other kids' houses their parents used to "open" and "close" the kitchen to regulate when their children were allowed to eat. At diner, some of my friends weren't allowed to eat and drink at the same time. They had to eat ALL of their food first then they could drink. All these rules and regulations that I watched my friends and family members follow as a child seemed stupid. My parents never denied my brother and I food. Today most of my friends that had strict food regulations are fat, out of shape and have bad skin.

As an adult I see food as a need not a want. I still don't keep cookies, cakes and pies in my home. When I was in grad school in 2003, I was an emotional eater for about 10 months and I gained about 10 pounds. I ate everything in site. I didn't pay attention to my weight because I had always been skinny. It wasn't until I moved to NYC that I realized that I was eating too much. So I started to take working out and eating right more seriously than I ever did before.

As I started to work out and eat better. I realized some things about me started to change. I was happier, my sex drive was above average, my clothes fit perfectly, I felt sexy, my skin and mind was clear. All of these positive and good feeling came from my change in lifestyle.

My sister-in-law gained a lot of weight when she was pregnant and after she spent a lot of time loosing weight. She cut out all sodas, watched her carbohydrates in take, started to change her eating and exercise habits, and she doesn't eat sweets during the week - only on the weekend.

2day, 6.22.2010 is my second day of doing the master cleanse. Not too bad. Of course I feel a little weak and my mind is a little loopy, but my body feels good. This cleanse is also a spiritual fast for me. Last year I started to read and try to understand the ways of Buddhism . Since, my personal / spiritual mission is to be more calm, patient and enlightened. For the next four days, I plan to reflect on my goals, focus on and be thankful for the life that I have, denounce my one-again-off-again smoking habit (not many people know that about me), and try to find my spiritual zenith.

CHEATERS

Since the beginning of time men, not just men with money and power have felt the need to cheat on their wives. Lately in the media there have been reports of male celebrities, Tiger Woods, Jessie James, Sen. John Edwards, Steve McNair, Matthew Knowles (singer Beyonce's father) that have cheated on their families. Recently, footballer, Tiki Barber decided to leave his pregnant wife of 11 years for a 23 year-old woman that he was dating and sexually intimate with. Sen. Edwards, lied and cheated on his wife (who was terminally ill with cancer) about his affair with a female c0-worker.

CERTIFIED SCUMBAGS

It is reported that Tiki's new women is a "model-thin," blonde woman. I am sorry, but the fact that she is blonde and "model-thin" is no longer a shock. White women have been the prime picking for men of power forever in this country. Lately, women of all colors are falling victim to infidelity from men that they trust.

However, I do find the latest trend of what I like to call 'Out-of-the-closet' Infidelity sad and disgusting. There are cultures around the world where men date, marry and bear children with multiple women. Thus, there are no expectations of monogamy. Women in other countries understand that they are not the "the only one." They expect it, are taught to handle it and accept that as their reality.

However, there are unwritten codes in life that we used to abide by. Just like the "mafia code", under the code, a mobster wasn't allowed to kill a man if his wife and children were around. You Scarface fans know just what I am talking about. Today, people have no respect for the "code," the mobsters/gangster will kill a man in front of his parents, children, and wife.

Which brings makes me wonder, since when is it cool and or acceptable to embarrass your family with your cheating ways? Where is the respect? Fellas, where is your honor? Clearly, men have been dipping out on there wives for centuries, but they kept it on the low. Even when things fell a part in a relationship, the children weren't aware of their father's infidelities. Men didn't flaunt their side-dish(es) in from of their main-course. And don't spend your time apologizing to people that don't matter (i.e. your fans and your sponsors, Mr. Woods). Apologize to your parents, your children and your wives for lying and cheating.

I leave you with two quotes from Mr. Carter

1. "If my hands in the cookie jar, know one thing...I'ma take the cookie not leave my ring ...If my hands in the cookie jar know one thing"

2. "if ever you mad about something it won't be that, oh no it won't be that i don't be at, places where we comfy at with no be-atch, oh no, you won't see that..."

Fellas, you've got to do better. It is worth the shame and the hurt that you put your families through? Think about your children. Nothing is wrong with moving on, but have some decency.